Scissors are Dangerous

Finally had a chance to wash and wax the new ride.



I love.

I've been retardley busy this past month but it looks like things are starting to slow down a little for me.  I've been able to relax a little this past week, just a little but it was nice.  I was able to make it out and go surfing today thankfully.  I think I would've gone insane by now without the surf.  I'm glad it's been good lately since this time of the year usually isn't all that great but there have been a few fun swells lately. 

Bought a new car yesterday.  A brand new 2008 Scion TC.  WOO... oh wait, I meant I made the down payment and set up my loan for the car yesterday.  I won't be able to pick up the actual car until Thursday or Friday, which probably means Saturday due to work.  I had no idea Scion did their sales this way and it was a real downer to find out I'd be driving my shitty Honda for another week but still, WOO NEW CAR. 

I'm giving the Honda to my younger cousin.  He's going to start college in August and I really want him to start doing something with himself so I figured I'd give him the car so he doesn't have to catch the bus an hour everyday.

Also, can't wait for Rock the Bells!  It's only about a month away now.  Woo!

Frank Miller's Daredevil
Chris Claremont's X-Men
Alan Moore's Swamp Thing
Doug Moench's Moon Knight
Alan Moore's Watchmen
Stan Sakai's Usagi yojimbo
Jeff Smith's Bone
Paul Dini's Detective Comics

If you have not been reading Paul Dini's run on Detective Comics you need to go pick up all the issues right now.  Fucking amazing.  The latest issue, #833, is especially good and is what prompted me to post this.  At least pick up #826("Slayride) which is now one of my favorite Joker stories.

I've been so disinterested in everything lately.  I just can't seem to feel any sort of passion for anything.  I mean I leave for Phoenix to visit college friends and road trip to Cochella in two days and I feel like I'd rather just stay home and go surfing...

Ok, I guess I lied.  I still love bodyboarding.  A lot.  Besides that though theres just nothing else I really care about right now, well sans family of course.  My job sucks.  I haven't been inspired to take any pictures lately, which is really bad since I'm the middle of a photography course at the moment.  Haven't touched my saxophone in months.  Even video games aren't really doing anything for me at the moment, ok I'm lying again because I recently got re-addicted to Company of Heroes.  Stopped watching movies to.

I don't know if I'm depressed, or just bored with it all already.  I just can't seem to get out of this rut.  I've been feelign kind of lonely lately.  Ever since two of my really good friends left for the Navy things just haven't felt the same.  A large part of that is probably the fact that they were my two surfing buddies.  I just really miss those guys.  Le sigh.

I think it might have something to do with the way things are going at work as well.  I feel swamped.  There are just too many people depending on me every minute of the day now.  to get some peace I have to turn off my work phone.  Even then my boss ends up calling me after hours for stuff.  Plus with the huge contract were working on now I feel like the walls are closing in.  I am pretty much at the very top of the mountain and I can just feel it getting ready to crash down all around me.  We have this nationwide contract and I am basically responsible for anything IT related that has to do with it.  It is fucking scary.  I had to walk the Las Vegas team through setting up a system today because noone over there knew how to do it.  It felt like they were calling me every five minutes of the day and see things were fine when we were just concentrating on Hawaii but now I have to worry about Las Vegas and then most of the west coast locations soon.  Uuuuuuuuuugggggghhhhhhhhhhh.  I just want to quit and be done with it.

Still there are some perks to being top dog now.  Getting to leave early pretty much whenever I want to is a definate plus.  Also don't get any of the shit work anymore and if theres something I just don't outright feel like doing I pass it down onto one of my underlings if I can that is.  Theres still a few things that they can't handle on their own.  Though the flip side is having to fight with my boss over getting them proper raises when due, which is something I really shouldn't have to fight about considering the job they've been doing so far.  Really the salary they are getting now is kind of ridiculous.  So I try to send them home early when I can but of course then they complain that they aren't able to rack up any overtime so blarrrrrrggghhh.  Doesn't really help that my boss is a fucking tool and I can't stand him.

And arrrrrrrgghhh!  I'm bitching about work again.  Feels like that's all I do nowadays.  Anywho I think that's enough rambling for one night.
 

Originally posted on magnus9.vox.com

So I got to go body boarding today and I think I had a panic attack or something.

I was pretty happy since it had been a few weeks since there's been a good swell on a day that I actually had free time to go. Drove down to my favorite beach and the waves were pretty rough because it was so windy but some nice 4-5 footers were rolling in and barreling pretty nicely. I was out for about a half hour, caught a couple of really fun ones, and it really felt good to be out in the water again. Then this wave threw early and really took me by surprise. It just so happened to be the first wave in the set so I proceeded to get pounded by another 4 or 5 waves. Now this isn't anything new. I've been through worse at this beach. It's a shore break so I've been slammed straight into the ground by waves but it never phased me before. I'd just come up for air jump on my board and paddle back out for the next set. Today though I panicked. Like really panicked. I couldn't breath and each time I came back up it got worse. Finally I got pushed far enough into shore that I could stand and catch my breath... but I couldn't. I felt sick to my stomach and my knees were week. So I went and sat on the beach to try and calm myself down a little. I felt sick to my stomach when I came out. I felt like I was going to throw up there on the beach. I laid on my board for a good 20 minutes and my heart was still racing. I was just scared out of my mind I think.

I still don't know why though. I've done this hundreds of times before and like I said I've been through worse at this beach. This beach is pretty well known for broken shoulders and necks but it's never bothered me before. Something was different today though. I don't know what. It was really scary and I just couldn't get myself to go back into the water after wards.

It really shook me up. I've never been scared of the ocean before. I mean if you asked me what that one thing that could always make me forget all my troubles and all the stress I go through everyday it would be the water. A good wave or barrel could always calm me down and make me forget, for at least a little while, about my life and the real world.

Now I'm just scared I won't go back. I know I want to, it's something I don't think I could ever stop doing but I really got shook up today. It is the end of the season though and a swell like today is pretty big for this time of the year so hopefully soon I'll have a chance to go out when there's a smaller swell.

Went to Reggae on the Rocks friday night which was an awesome concert. Saw Krushal Meditations, Rebelution and Tribal Seeds for the first time and they all rocked. Also finally got to see Yellowman and Barrington Levy live, which was pretty much the best thing ever. Yellowman was especially awesome. Not to mention the great Tanya Stevens. I'm totally pumped for next month's Bob Fest. Can't wait to see Lauryn Hill and Capleton.

Also, getting used to my manager position. It helps that the two employees I have are coming along good. They actually know what the hell a computer is and their really good guys. Makes my job a lot easier. Plus I get to make them do the stuff I hate like training clients. God I hate training people. I just can't stand it.

Been getting used to my new dslr. I bought the Nikon D50 and I love it a lot. Been sticking to auto mode mostly but the pics that come out of this camera are ten times better than what I was getting out of my Canon P&S.

Besides that it's been the usual. Hanging out, surfing, that kind of stuff.

I'm missing the SOJA concert. =*(

Sent off the final payment on one of my student loans todays.   Now its just $100 a month on the other one for the next 8 years or so and I'm paid off. Woo.

If you didn't watch the Fiesta Bowl this year... well holy fuck you missed an awesome game. I must have rewatched that final play like 15 times.

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Fucking Awesome!